Dear Someone,
How much I may pretend that I am avoiding you in front of the world who doesn’t want me to see emotionally weak and fragile but today you need to know this; deep down I still love you. I am still blooming fresh and fragrant feelings for you in the colorful garden of my heart.
I could still remember that moment when you cut off my call at the middle after warning me not to call you again. Though I dived deep into miseries. I did what you wished. And I even didn't expect for the reply of my message where I had wished "Happy Dipawali" to you and your family.
It's okay. I am cool. God has gifted me enough blessings that even if I share it with the entire world I wouldn't fall short of it.
You may be wondering what I would think about you after all this month of your emotional detachment with me. How would I response your surprising "Missed call" in my mobile at the evening hours after the distressful gap of 2 months?
I don't want to lie you today even I can't restrain myself to tell you all the truths. I didn't sleep till 3 am at morning. I felt like my bed is floating in the middle of the ocean and the big monstrous wave is about to swallow me before I would realize that I am thinking deep about you.
There's nothing wrong to think deep about the one whom a person love. Is it? Thinking is my constitutional right even if it is not written in the constitution and loving is my institutional right even if I don't have it in my intuition.
Dear, if you carry good motives and pure heart you can truly be close with anyone at any circumstances. Even the God won't stop you from coming closer to him. You and me constitute that subtle part of God and our body is mere a disintegrating mass of mud. I love your subtle part. Your godly qualities. Not your disintegrating mass.
It isn't necessary that you would trust me with your body as I am not only enchanted by your looks, I wish you would trust me with your soul which I could read closing my books.
I have forgotten my bitter past and memories and now I have embraced my divine present. If you wish to enjoy this divine present with me and carve your meaningful future please come and rejoice the silence of my heart. My heart is open even during holidays.
To tell you the truth I still have that little craziness in me, that poetic quality and feminine care.
Creativity is my wealth. You are my goal and love is my commitment. If you can't accept me the way I am, I don't have regrets. Just my goal will be changed and I will remain the same.
Love me or hate me,
Frain Chakrit
